homicidal lesbian terrorist

i see your women caught behind windows
in their homes, behind rows and rows
of bleached and frightened children.
They speak men's words, not their own
except those languages they've
learned to speak in secret
and in dreams, if they've
not forgotten.

- Joy Harjo, From the Salt Lake City Airport '82

Wednesday, September 22

what to do

If the federal government should overpass the just bounds of its authority and make a tyrannical use of its powers, the people, whose creature it is, must appeal to the standard they have formed, and take such measures to redress the injury done to the Constitution as the exigency may suggest and prudence justify.

Alexander Hamilton, Federalist 33, 3 January 1788

Sunday, September 5

double fuck.

so once more it's almost two am and i'm suffering insomnia and not wanting to go to bed. today is my parents' 35th wedding anniversary and i have to go to dinner with them in rhode island... i'm going to get up and go in the morning and i think i don't want to deal with that.

i don't know why that is pressure. but it is.

fuck.

fuck.

Saturday, September 4

fuck.

it's two-thirty in the morning and i can't be arsed to go to bed.

*sigh*

guess i'll go to bed, then.

fuck.

Friday, September 3

the love test

I took this online test. It's mostly accurate - except the bit about sex entitlement. I don't take my partners for granted. Which is fine, because this isn't rocket science eh.

20 Questions to a Better Relationship
eXpressive: 4/10
Practical: 6/10
Physical: 9/10
Giver: 3/10

You are a RPYT - Reserved Practical Physical Taker. This makes you a Stoic.

You are intelligent, rugged, disciplined and profound. Even if you're saddled with a desk job, you are starving for the outdoors. You are very slow to warm up to people, and people are slow to warm up to you, but once they know you they never forget you.

You do not get much attention from your target sex, and this means you can feel unloved or unwanted. This is not the case! You are just a hard nut to crack, and your social anxiety leaves you overlooked or outside the frame altogether. What is good for you is increments of low-interaction group activity, like sports or outdoor work. The person who can chop wood with you will melt your heart.

In a long term relationship, you are loving and devoted. You are calm in a conflict until your partner presses your buttons -- it's never the problem at hand that gets under your skin, but how your partner handles it. Don't take offense! Sometimes it's just the only way your partner knows how to express things.

You would never cheat, and your approach to sex is conventional and almost prudish. But sex for you is a release and a necessity of life, and you have a sense of entitlement about it that can be trouble. Make sure your partner is comfortable and satisfied -- by communicating both in and out of the bedroom -- and you will be more satisfied yourself.

You may take a lot of what your partner does for granted. Make a special effort to reward and validate him/her, and you will be repaid in spades.

You have nice legs.

Of the 46091 people who have taken this quiz, 4.3% are this type.