i am still alive?

did you know i am still alive?
mm. me neither. i have floated
in this fog. doubt? none. fear? sure. mostly

it's the same fucking anger running sewage
leaking steam on a frozen morning
& should you mistake it for true steam,
pure boiled
h2o

you'd get a rank fucking stench in your nose instead.
oops. that's just me. & it feels like
shit running through me
& there's shit running out of me, ectoplasmic
effluvium.

i'm tired of the shit.
brush my shoulders off.

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i am currently listening to:
the grey album
jay-z v. the beatles (d j danger mouse)